Sharla Snow & Jess discuss Thermography & Breast Health


The following tale is shared with Sharla's permission, of course.

Sharla & Jess talk Thermography!

Sharla & Jess talk Thermography!

Sharla Snow is a client of mine for Medical Thermal Imaging (Thermography). Medical Thermal Imaging is a way to scan the physiology/ blood flow of the body (as opposed to structure). This differs from mammography in the sense that Thermography is looking for PRE-disease patterns, or in other terms, Thermography is a preventive scan. By the time you realize you have a tumor (structure) the disease has gone from it's infancy stage (inflammation) all the way to it's end stage: a tumor.

Sharla came to see me in the fall of 2016 after she found a lump in her breast but didn't feel comfortable getting a mammogram due to the radiation, compression and pain. We performed her Thermogram and a week later her Medical Thermal Imaging Report came back abnormal due to a large asymmetry in the heat, distribution, and intensity of the thermal patterns in her left breast. The doctor who wrote Sharla's report recommended proactive and holistic protocols: that she do lymphatic drainage, dry brushing, perhaps introduce Vitamin D3, selenium and other healthy supplements into her diet with various other lifestyle changes.

Sharla responded quickly and rose to the occasion to help her situation. She is a distributor of essential oils and extremely holistically minded, so by the time she came back for her follow-up in February of 2017 she had enacted many natural protocols into her life and her report came back noting the improvements; specifically, the thermal patterns in her left breast had decreased!

Sharla posted her story & images on facebook and it went viral. Everyone asked Sharla what she did, what the pictures meant, what Thermography was, etc etc.

Sharla asked if her and I could give a talk to help educate and empower women - so we did! 

The following is our talk; if you have any questions please feel free to contact me :) <3

What is thermography? Is it safe? Why have you never heard of it before? How is it helpful? What are the benefits? 

Alternative Health Tools Podcast Interviews Jess

tuning forks

John Biethan is the host of Alternative Health Tools, a Southern California based podcast that shares alternative health tools, tips and resources from complementary, alternative and holistic healthcare practitioners. 

John & Jess met at INNER TEMPLE one fateful Tuesday in 2016, bonding over Tuning Forks and the magical healing properties of sound.

The rest is history...

Dry Brushing

This article was featured in The Life Connection in November 2016.

What is dry brushing?

Dry brushing, or garshana, is the ancient Ayurvedic practice of brushing your skin in the morning in order to loosen impurities on the skin.

Dry brushing removes dead skin cells from the surface of the skin, and in doing so allows for better detoxification at the skins surface. Dry brushing also improves lymphatic flow and thus increasing vitamin absorption throughout the body by increasing circulation. Constant dry brushing helps to break up areas of stagnation and “stuckness,” getting rid of toxic buildup in the body.

Dry brushing is best done in the morning before you shower because it has a mild ‘caffeine’ effect where your body feels buzzed and invigorated! Due to it’s massage-like effects, dry brushing is also stress relieving and has meditative effects.

Also, the side effects aren’t that bad and may include the reduction of cellulite & glowing skin 

dry brush


How to select a dry brush:

The brush must be made of natural resources – such as a wood or bamboo brush with natural bristles. This is very important, brushing the skin with a plastic brush contains impurities that will then collect on the skin. The skin is the largest organ of your body, so it’s imperative to use a natural brush to gain all of the benefits of Dry Brushing.

Dry brushes are the brushes you see in any “shower” aisle of Target, Home Goods, Bed, Bath & Beyond and they range from $3-$10. The longer handle extends your arm & makes it easier to get to hard to reach areas like your mid-back.


How to dry brush:

·         Dry brush for about 5-10 minutes in the morning before you shower.

·         Use firm pressure over the main areas, but lighter pressure over areas where the skin is thinner & more sensitive. Your skin should be pink after you brush, not red & irritated.

·         Always brush UP towards your heart, brushing away from your heart will add stress on the heart.

·         Brush UP your arms and UP your legs.

·         Avoid painful areas

·         Use circular motions over the joints

·         Finish your Garshana with a shower to wash away all the impurities you have removed from your skin.


The difference Dry Brushing makes!!!

Client A: Medical Thermal Image of someone who dry brushes daily & makes their own homemade non-toxic deodorant (green = normal)

lymphatic congestion

Client B: Medical Thermal Image of someone who has never heard of dry brushing & uses store-bought toxic deodorant (red/white = hottest areas indicating extreme inflammation)


Other Lymphatic Tips:

·         Self-massage your neck & shoulders with coconut oil

·         Jump on a trampoline for 5 minutes a day to improve lymph flow

·         Exercise by running, walking or jogging, any UP and DOWN movement to stimulate lymph circulation

·         Massage your lymph nodes in your neck near the bend in your mandible (jaw bone), massage your armpits, lower abdomen & inguinal area – these areas contain the largest lymph nodes

o   Tip: you’ve probably felt your lymph nodes in your neck if you’ve ever gotten sick, they will swell to about the size of a dime!

·         Make your own deodorant!! Normal store-bought deodorant contains aluminum, (which has been found in the brain of people with Alzheimer’s) parabens & phthalates interfere with hormones in the body- notably estrogen & testosterone which can lead to chronic disease.

o   Tip: my favorite [read: easy] deodorant to make is Wellness Mama’s Natural DIY Deodorant, Deodorant #2 which contains 4 ingredients!! Find it here:

·         Get a lymphatic drainage massage from a professional

·         Reduce your risk of cumulative radiation by choosing Thermography as your health assessment!








Thermography: A Safe Breast Health Assessment

The following article, written by me, was published in the Gerson Institute's Spring 2016 magazine.

For years, new research has been calling into question the effectiveness of mammography. As a result, the American Cancer Society (ACS) changed their stance on mammograms in October 2015. ACS previously recommended that annual mammograms begin at 40 years of age. But now with increased knowledge of the limitations and potential harms of mammography, the ACS recommends that annual screening shouldn’t start until age 45 and should change to every two years starting at 55(1)!

Thermography is a non-invasive way to study the physiology of the human body (as differentiated from ultrasound and mammograms, which study the structure of the body). Thermography simply detects subtle variations in skin temperature using an infrared camera in a temperature-controlled room, which can provide clues to what is going on beneath the surface of the skin. Humans are infrared beings that give off energy in the form of heat.  An infrared camera (think night-vision) is heat-sensitive. Whereas a mammogram emits ionizing radiation through your compressed breast tissue, on a thermogram you radiate your energy toward the camera. Thus, nothing is passed through your body.  Another very common example of using heat to detect illness is getting your temperature checked at a doctor’s visit, because fever (excess heat) implies infection or dis-ease.

Hippocrates is considered the “father of modern medicine” as we know it. You may have heard of the Hippocratic Oath that present-day doctors still take, promising to “do no harm.” Something less well-known is that Hippocrates is also the “father of thermography.” In 400 AD, Hippocrates smeared wet clay over his patients’ bodies looking for patterns in the clay as it dried. He noticed that some areas dried more quickly than others, because of excess internal heat. He is quoted as saying “in whatever part of the body excess heat or cold is felt, there is disease to be discovered.” (2)

wet mud slurry thermogram

Left photo – A slurry of wet clay on a patient the way that Hippocrates would have used it, quickly dried around the umbilicus (belly button) indicating excess heat.

Right photo – Thermogram showing excess heat in the exact same area around the umbilicus.

Cancer is fed by the body’s own blood supply. Thermography can detect the increased heat that results from the early development of vascularity (angiogenesis) to feed the cancer. Cancer occurs in our body when the normal cell-death mechanism (called apoptosis or regulated cell death) turns off. The cell “forgets” to die and continues growing, untamed and unchecked. (3) Because this process begins on a cellular level, no solid mass forms right away, only a small gathering of cells. Only after growing for a certain number of years does a cancerous tumor become large enough to finally be seen on a mammogram.

The chart below was developed from Dr. Michael Retsky’s cancer-growth research showing that the possible observation times for a mammogram to find a tumor are near the end of the tumor’s growth, which is not early detection.  His research found that breast cancer typically doubles in volume in about 100 days. Since mammography is usually able to find breast tumors at approximately 1 cm, he estimates the usual time to detect breast cancer is at 30 doublings (of 100 days each) -- a total of 8 years.  He concludes that “the possible observation times in breast cancer is limited to between the 30th and 40th doublings or at most the last 25% of the growth history of a tumor.” (4)

90 days                        2 cells

1 year                          16 cells

2 years                         256 cells

3 years                         4,896 cells

5 years                         1,048,576 cells

6 years                         16,772,216 cells

7 years                         268,435,456 cells

8 years                         4,294,967,296 cells



Mammograms were called into question because of their large number of false positives, as well as the issue of overdiagnosis and overtreatment: if mammograms were truly helping diagnose cancer early they should improve overall breast cancer mortality rates - but there are some studies showing that they don’t. (5)  Most often breast cancers are found in the upper outer area of the breasts, in between the breast tissue and the armpit (6) which cannot be visualized on a mammogram.

Mammograms have an average sensitivity of 80% in women over 50, which drops to 60% in women under 50. (7) Hormone usage decreases the sensitivity of mammograms. In addition, women who have scar tissue or dense or fibrocystic breasts have a tendency to get recalled for a repeat mammogram (resulting in more radiation exposure) because of difficulties reading the scans, since mammograms are not able to differentiate between a solid tumor and fluid-filled cyst or calcification. In spite of all of this, there is a strong commitment by the National Cancer Institute to reassure women that the benefits of mammography outweigh the risks, but repeated X-ray exposure can cause cancer. (8)


Thermography is a reasonable alternative for women who want to avoid the radiation of a mammogram, for those who have implants (since it does not damage them) or for women who have had other breast surgeries resulting in scar tissue. It is also a great option for women who are considered high risk, are taking hormones, are younger or have dense breasts.  Additionally, thermography has no harmful side effects so it can be used as often as desired.

According to the American College of Clinical Thermography, thermography can detect abnormalities of the female breast and can also examine breast tissue in men.  Another advantage is that the entire chest is observed, neck to abdomen and armpit to armpit, and there is no compression of tissue, which can sometimes spread cancer cells. (9) Thermography can monitor treatment effectiveness and can distinguish between benign and malignant tissue in women with fibrocystic breasts. 

There are over 800 peer-reviewed articles supporting the effectiveness of thermography (10) and there are many well-known supporters of thermography including Dr. Christiane Northrup, Dr. Joseph Mercola and Dr. Veronique Desaulniers. Thermography was also most recently featured in Episode 2 of The Truth About Cancer! (an online documentary series).  Thermography was even approved by the FDA as an adjunctive test to mammography in 1982.

thermogram breast inflammation

Thermographic image of breast cancer in the right breast diagnosed via biopsy.  Hyperthermia/inflammation follows the lymphatic system to branch from the axillary lymph node into the breast tissue. 

A 2003 study indicated “Thermography offers a safe, noninvasive procedure that would be valuable as an adjunct to mammography in determining whether a lesion is benign or malignant with a 99% predictive value.” (11)

A study published in 2008 by The American Society of Breast Surgeons concluded that DITI (digital infrared thermal imaging, or thermography) was a valuable adjunct to mammography and ultrasound especially in women with dense breast parenchyma [tissue] because of its 97% sensitivity. (12)

The American College of Clinical Thermography also describes the benefit of doing thermography along with mammography, citing the results of Canadian research:  The 84% sensitivity rate of mammography alone was increased to 95% when infrared imaging was added.13

In 2013, researchers Kolaric found thermography to have the probability of a correct finding in 92% of cases . They concluded that “breast cancer remains the most prevalent cancer in women and thermography exhibited superior sensitivity. We believe that thermography should immediately find its place in the screening programs for early detection of breast carcinoma, in order to reduce the sufferings from this devastating disease.” (14)

thermogram implants

Thermographic image of a patient with implants

According to women’s health specialist, Dr. Christine Horner, thermography can “detect breast cancers much earlier than any other available technology. Because blood vessels ordinarily start to grow before any other significant changes and tumor growth, a thermogram can ‘see’ these abnormal physiological processes as early as 5-10 years before a cancer can be seen by a mammogram, MRI, or ultrasound or felt by a physical exam. What is most exciting is that when these abnormal processes are caught this early they are reversible.” (15) This gives time for natural interventions such as diet, supplementation and lifestyle changes like stress management to heal the body.


Jessica Luibrand attended Grand Valley State University where she received her Bachelor’s degree in Health Sciences with a double minor in Biology and Sociology. She is currently employed as Chief Clinical Thermographer and Subtle Energy Researcher at Psy-Tek Subtle Energy Laboratory. Her mission is to combine her love of health and wellness with her love of people. 


Editor’s note: According to the American College of Clinical Thermography (ACCT), “One day there may be a single method for the early detection of breast cancer.  Until then, using a combination of methods will increase your chances of detecting cancer in an early state.”16 The ACCT suggests an annual thermography screening, mammography when appropriate, and regular breast exams.

The ACCT explains that most women use thermography in addition to mammography and/or ultrasound.  They believe thermal imaging should be “viewed as a complementary, not competitive, tool to mammography and ultrasound” that can increase the effectiveness of those two structural tests by identifying patients having the highest risk level.17

The International Academy of Clinical Thermography says that thermography is not a replacement for mammography because “there is no one test that can detect 99-100% of all cancers.”  In addition, thermography and mammography “are ‘looking’ for completely different pathological processes” because one tests physiology and the other tests anatomy.  Lastly, they explain that “thermography is far more sensitive than mammography; however, some slow growing non-aggressive cancers will only be detected by mammography.”18

Breast cancer detection is a multifaceted issue that requires an individualized approach. Each person must make their own decision and stay aware of the most current research. Because cancer screening is a billion dollar industry, it can be difficult to obtain unbiased information.19

Screening measures such as mammography and thermography can be beneficial tools for detection, depending on the circumstances. Use of one or the other, or both, depends on a variety of factors, such as age, history of disease, disease status, type of cancer, density of breast tissue and more. Remember that thermography or mammograms or breast exams cannot diagnose cancer. In the end, if something suspicious is found on a mammogram, or by ultrasound, breast exam or thermography, the definitive diagnosis can only be done by biopsy.



1.      “American Cancer Society Releases New Breast Cancer Guideline,” American Cancer Society, accessed February 20, 2016,

2.      “Aphorisms by Hippocrates,” The Internet Classics Archives, accessed February 21, 2016,

3.      Rebecca SY Wong, “Apoptosis in cancer: from pathogenesis to treatment,” Journal ofExperimental and Clinical Cancer Research, 30(1) (2011): 87.

4.      “M. Retsky, PhD. Cancer Growth Implication for Medicine and Malpractice White Paper,” Technical Assistance Bureau, accessed February 21, 2016,

5.      “Screening for Breast Cancer with Mammography,” Cochrane, accessed February 21, 2016,

6.      AH Lee, “Why is carcinoma of the breast more frequent in the upper outer quadrant? A case series based on needle core biopsy diagnoses,” Breast, 14(2) (2005): 151-2.

7.      “Accuracy of Mammograms,” Susan G. Koman, accessed February 21, 2016,

8.      “Mammograms Fact Sheet,” National Cancer Institute, accessed February 21, 2016,

9.      Johannes P. van Netten, Stephen A. Cann and James G. Hall,“Mammography Controversies: Time for Informed Consent?”Oxford Journals Medicine & Health: Journal of National Cancer Institute, 89 (15) (1997): 1164-1165.

10.  “Breast Screening Questions and Answers,” American College of Clinical Thermography, accessed February 21, 2016, 

11.  Y.R. Parisky, A. Sardi, R. Hamm, K. Hughes, L. Esserman, S. Rust and K.Callahan, “Efficacy of Computerized Infrared Imaging Analysis to Evaluate Mammographically Suspicious Lesions.” American Journal of Roentgenolgy 180 (January 2003).

12.  N. Arora, "Effectiveness of a Noninvasive Digital Infrared Thermal Imaging System in the Detection of Breast Cancer," The American Journal of Surgery (October 1, 2008): 523-26.

13.  “Breast Screening Questions and Answers,” American College of Clinical Thermography, accessed February 21, 2016,

14.  D. Kolaric et al. “Thermography- A Feasible Method for Breast Cancer Screening?” Collegium Anthropologicum 37 (2013): 583-588.

15.  Christine Horner, Waking the Warrior Goddess: Dr. Christine Horner's Program to Protect Against and Fight Breast Cancer, (New Jersey: Basic Health Publications, 2005), 21.

16.  “Early Detection Guidelines,” American College of Clinical Thermography, accessed February 21, 2016,

17.  “Mammography vs. Thermography,” International Academy of Clinical Thermography, accessed February 21, 2016,

18.  “Breast Screening Questions and Answers,” American College of Clinical Thermography, accessed February 21, 2016, 

19.  ”Largest, Longest Study on Mammograms Finds No Benefit, “, accessed February 21, 2016,








Nassim Haramein Interview Feat. in TLC Magazine

My friends Amelia Hall & Josh Kreithen & I were lucky enough to interview Quantum Physicst, Nassim Haramein, last year at the Conscious Life Expo in LA. The following article was published on in5d's website as well as in The Life Connection Magazine for February 2017. 

Physicist Nassim Haramein is a pioneer in quantum mechanics, unified field theory and energy research. He has dedicated his life to the investigation and the deep study of physics, sacred geometry, chemistry, biology, archeology and mathematics. Nassim leads the Resonance Project and directs and leads a team of physicists, electrical engineers, mathematicians and scientists with the purpose of exploring and advancing developments in quantum energy, life science and consciousness. Nassim currently resides in Encinitas California. This interview was conducted at the Los Angeles Hilton at the Conscious Life Expo in February 2016.

homies :)

homies :)

Question: You explain the brain as a receiver of different vibrational frequencies. Where do you think the signal originates?

Nassim: From a field of information that is present at the quantum level. This is on a very fine scale. Way below the atomic structure there is a field called the Planck Field, or the Planck oscillators. They are very small. Protons are already really small. So you are made out of a hundred trillion cells. There are a hundred trillion atoms approximately per cell. Atoms are really small. Imagine that protons are like a head of a pin on the dome of the Vatican. Then the dome is like the electron cloud of an atom. So a proton is really small. And realize that the Planck grains are making up the structure of space. So if the Planck would be the size of a grain of sand, then the proton would be a diameter from here to Alpha-Centari… which is about 40 trillion kilometers away. So the Planck is way teeny. It is the smallest proton of light, the smallest electromagnetic field that can exist. It is the portal of the fabric of space. And think the portal as a portal of information of all things being present in this field. Just like the electromagnetic waves carry information, that you can put up a radio set, tune the crystals to the right frequency and all of a sudden you can hear the music come out. It’s the same thing. The band that is making the music is not in the radio. The brain and nervous system is tapping into this field of information, which is a result of all other things radiating into it. So there is an exchange of information between everything and you that is occurring.

Question: Would you call this field the Collective Consciousness or the Akashic Record?

Nassim: Yes, you could call it that. Like if you wanted to use ancient civilization description. Many of them describe this field. They call is Prana or Chi. All sorts of different names.

Question: How do you think all the enlightened pre-technology ancient cultures discovered the same exact system of sacred geometry and Universal design? Do you think they were given this information by external sources such as extra-terrestrials? Or is the coded in our DNA? Or perhaps they learned how to tune into that knowledge through altered states of consciousness.

Nassim: I think it is all three of those. You find this across all the different cultures. If you put them together, they describe something very significant. The structure of space, the spin of space, and all this stuff like yin-yang. Basically it is describing this unified field. And if you look at their cultures describing these things, none of them say we came up with this. They all say we got this from the Sun God, or something that came from a star system in floating boats. Light beings. But at the same time, since we are made out of this stuff, it would naturally arise within us as well. So they recognized as something very fundamental. Very important… that is why they propagated it throughout the ages. So it will reach us. Right? And at the same time. Most likely, people had altered states of consciousness at time. And there are so many reports of those altered states of consciousness, by taking certain plants, medicinal compounds, and so forth. Seeing the geometry, seeing the dynamics, you know and so on. I think it is all about consciousness.

Question: So what do you think is happening at a neurobiological level?

Nassim: This field of information is a result of all things interacting in this space. Meaning all things radiating the information in the field. And how things absorb information. It’s a continuous feedback of information. It doesn’t have an origin. There is no beginning and end.

Question: You mention the black hole. Is it the electron that is going in and out?

Nassim: It is the photons. The electron is the charge that the black hole is producing. The proton is the black hole and the charge it produces is the electron. We actually just found last week a solution for the electron that is extremely exact. Like 99.9999997% exact and it is remarkable. And it is based on the exact same solution of the proton. And it predicts the …electron cloud. So now I have got the whole thing. I am really excited about this. So the information is the Planck field, the Planck photons, are the smallest units. Each bit of information is going through that cycle.

Question: Is it that it is the same exact structure that goes in that is also coming out? Or is the photon going somewhere else in the Universe?

Nassim: The bit that crosses the event horizon can be anywhere in the universe. All the volumes are shared through the wormhole structures. Just like a neural network. All of a sudden, the information becomes available for everyone else. It might come out at the same place, or somewhere else in the Universe. It doesn’t matter, because when it comes back out, it is changed like the rest of them. It experienced the outside. And it is changed by the outside. Then it goes back in and it’s changed by the entire Universe. It is a constant evolution.

Question: So in the atomic model, the center is a black hole. My first question has to do with the proton. In essence… is the proton the center of the black hole?

Nassim: The proton is the black hole.

Question: So, what if there is more than one proton? Such as oxygen with 16 protons.

Nassim: So then there are 16 black holes, orbiting each other. This is why if you get too many of them in there, they become unstable. They start radiating and now you have nuclei decay. The protons themselves don’t decay, at all. We have never seen a proton decay, ever in 13.7 billion years. There has been no proton decay, so that is pretty good!

Question: What do you think prevents one proton’s black hole sucking in the other proton‘s black hole? The energy is so strong. What is the force that stabilizes the protons from swallowing one another?

Nassim: Try centripetal force. Geo-scopic effects. Remember, they are spinning. And they are spinning fast. So those centripetal forces, and the Coriolis effect, such a strong angular momentum, will keep everything in orbit. Unless it’s got the wrong number and it doesn’t want it. Then radiation will happen until it finds the right relationship. So that is why heavy nucleons start to radiate radioactive energy. And emit electromagnetic wavelengths. The same thing in the solar system and Universe.

Question: If you look at the atomic model, and the galaxy, with a black hole in the center of each system… is there another scale up?

Nassim: Right. There are hundreds of galaxies with black holes in the middle. And there are super clusters that have black holes in the middle of them.

Question: So that also exists on another whole level and scale?

Nassim: Exactly. That is correct. There are black holes all the way up and all the way down. Absolutely. That is what I have found. The Planck obeys the condition of a black hole too. The little Planck is a teeny black hole. If you take the mass of our Universe and you put it in the radius of the Universe we see today, it obeys the exact condition of a black hole. It is not a coincidence. They call it a coincidence in standard physics, but it’s not.

Question: So is there an ultimate coincidence that all of this stuff happened on accident? Was it just random? Or was it designed? It’s so intricate that it seems it was designed by something.

Nassim: Well, you are going back to wanting a beginning and an end. And I don’t think that actually exists. All we have seen in the Universe at any time is just change of state. I have not seen anything end, or begin. We just have a change of state. Actually today there are articles that came out from studies that are being done in quantum physics where they describe the space as a fluid of Planck’s. They solved some of the equations now showing there was no Big Bang… there was no beginning! It has always been there. You know, it is an infinite continuous feedback of information. It is hard for us, because we think, “we were born and then we die”, and that’s why we have this idea of there being a beginning and an end. That might not be a universal concept. That is just a human concept. The beginning of your life, and the end of our life, doesn’t show anything new happening… just a change of state. Meaning, like when you die, all the atoms you are made of are just recycled. Just goes to another state.

Question: And so do you believe in reincarnation?

Nassim: Absolutely. Yes, I see no reason why information would be lost. Physics says no information can be lost. So, I don’t see why the information of who you are, that is in Plank field, would go anywhere. It would probably seek another residence. A condition it can regain a body to continue to explore. So, yes, I have no problem with reincarnation and concept of Akashic Record. And so on. Basically it is the physics of the Universe….

Why we need Vitamin Y (yoga)

(This was written about a week ago during our second last night in Siem Reap, Cambodia.)

It’s our last night in Siem Reap (again.) John has had a serious case of food poisoning that is still lingering. Tomorrow we are headed to Sen Monorom, Mondulkiri; a province to the east that borders Vietnam.

Today I did yoga for the first time in about a month and a half. Before I left for the trip I was too busy planning, organizing, packing, cleaning and moving, and now during the trip we’ve been busy sightseeing, walking, hiking, traveling, wandering and planning our next move.

John’s food poisoning (and inability to walk about) inspired me to get back to my center and find my roots, which plant best on a yoga mat. I went to the Ahimsa Academy in Siem Reap, which is a rooftop studio that overlooks all of Old Town, including Pub Street.

My yoga teacher, Thomas, has been practicing yoga for 40 years and took us through a semi stationary, semi vinyasa practice. My mind raced at first, louder than usual but I expected this due to the fact this was the first time I’ve practiced in a while. Eventually the yoga poses got harder and my mind got quieter as my ujjayi breath got louder. Presence in the posture leading to presence in my bodymind and eventually peace in my heart and soul.


Sometimes we fall off our yoga bandwagon and it’s easy to make excuses for why we can’t go (and then if you’re like me, you judge yourself constantly for not going), but eventually we (I) need to understand that everything is a cycle. Sometimes we cycle into yoga and sometimes we cycle out, the only thing that matters is that our yoga mat waiting for us without judgement (svadhyaya).

Yoga gently pulls us out of the madness of our mind and introduces us back into our body and the present moment. Practicing yoga is such a euphemism for practicing life. Yoga can be difficult, but then when we invite air into our lungs and patience in our heart, we find a little more space in our tight muscles and a little more stretch in our bodies. Life can be difficult too, and the same applies; we bend so we don’t break.

I am a recovering athlete. I played soccer all my life and then swam competitively in high school and then throughout college I began to run. All of these were distractions to get out of my mind, finding I had to do something to get rid of my ‘lesser’ emotions like anger. When I found yoga a few years later it brought me back into my body, helping me through emotions instead of getting tossed around by. You can’t think your way out of a yoga pose, but you feel your way through it.


I have scoliosis and my slightly-bent spine has always made it extremely difficult to even touch my toes; which has always a judgement toward myself. Through practicing patience through yoga I have been able to touch my toes and then some. That being said, I do still get caught up with how my practice should look. Being a yoga teacher, I feel like I should be able to do more poses and stretch in certain ways, and for now I need to understand that my spine is not ready for that. One of my favorite things that I’ve heard in yoga during the different stages of more difficult poses is “this is the pose, stay here until you feel stable.”

My first yoga practice was Bikram and due to the ‘athlete’ mindset I would pull and tug my body into the different postures; I thought how it looked aesthetically was the goal I was aiming for, but through slower practices I found that if I have patience and gratitude for where my body is, it will open in time; it needs my support instead of my judgeyness.

So thankfully amidst the madness, I’ve rediscovered my inner peace, located inside myself of course, but also on a 68’” by 24” magical ‘peace’ of plastic. And my daily practice of svadhyaya – self study & non judgment continues ☺✌🏻