A Dark Winter 2025
Hi dear friends,
It’s been awhile since my last newsletter.
The truth is that the past few months have been unexpectedly difficult for me… and to be honest … for most of the people i have spoken too about about the start of 2026. Regardless of how they would describe themselves as being ‘tuned-in,’ sensitive, or an empath, or not spiritual at all - random sicknesses, depression, surprise allergies, unexpected hospital visits, even deaths have been plaguing so many that i know (and me too!)
This heaviness, this density, that we have been trudging through… we have noticed the effects of this feeling deep in our bones and hearts and minds; it feels dark and sticky. It’s in our thoughts before bed, sometimes leaking into our dreams; we have all felt the prickle on the back of our neck of our fears and insecurities in the background creeping to the foreground.
💕Ahhh life. What a roller coaster. A river. A spiral.
Life can move us through seasons that ask more of us than we expected; like the strong rapids of a large river, life can speed up suddenly, it can pull us under, it challenges us. It makes us suffer to grow and evolve so that we are reminded to turn inwards to find answers to our questions, our own inner strength and resilience; and guidance through patience, humility, and a deeper kind of listening. Life does this again and again and again. Remember, the person who got in the river is never the same as the person who gets out.
What we can trust and know is that life is a spiral, it goes around and around and around and sometimes similar things happen to us that have happened before - but now we have the ✨currency and the energy✨ of Wisdom Through Experience, which we can work with.
Suffering is necessary because it is the fertile soil that compassion is able to sprout from (no mud, no lotus). The kindest people i know are the ones who have suffered and grown through what they’ve gone through, they’ve catalyzed their pain into goodness for others. They’ve become the alchemist.
I try to alchemize whatever is ✨up and alive✨ in my life as my meditation object, my focus, my drishti. Lately my meditations have been about being okay with not being okay, allowing a calmness with the confusion, not knowing the next step, feeling a bit lost and perhaps not having control. In communion with my shallow breaths and fast heart rate i have been able to listen deeper to what my body is asking for: REST.
Because of my highly sensitive and intuitive nature i sometimes feel like a canary in a coal mine (haha, but for real☺️) - it seems whatever the mood of the collective or temperature of the environment that we’re in - thats what is LOUD in my heart, mind and soul.
So, I have been letting go of control - daily and literally outloud as a practice (ex: something that i wanted to work out doesn’t and i say out loud “and that’s okay.” or “if not this than something better.”) I have been allowing uncertainty and doubt to wash all over me and then sitting with the fear that it brings up viscerally in my body and knowing that how I’m feeling is okay - it’s just the season I’m in. Its the season we’re all in.
It’s totally normal and beautifully human to be confused right now.
🪷 During the difficult winter moments, I found myself returning again and again to a simple prayer I’ve carried for years and I wanted to share it:
May I be supported.
May I be protected.
May I be healed.
May I be guided.
Over time I have realized that this prayer isn’t just something I ask for in my own life, its also my forever intention; to create spaces of support, protection, healing, and guidance through my magical offerings and sacred presence.
Together, with love and understanding, slowly, and through softening, through gathering, through sharing stories, allowing yourself to be vulnerable, and surrendering into the current weather of life; all of this presents the opportunity for the universe to gift you wings.
May you be supported
May you be protected
May you be healed
May you be guided
And just like that - the seasons shift - and winter ends, as it does ever year.
Xoxo
Jess
